I've Come to a Conclusion....

Life's really just to unpredictable for me. This entry may not be too exciting because it's on a more serious note... and I'm not really serious about anything... ever. But life this summer seems to me to be like a train that was running toward it's destination and just totally jumped off course and started running the other way.

Things this summer haven't changed for the better... but rather for the worst. It's nothing that I really want to reveal, but in general, things have been rather crappy. Sometimes it seems like the stability in my life is just crumbling away right before my eyes, and that can really make one feel like garbage. When all that you knew in the past just kind of disappears so quickly, it can really be a morale killer.

I guess maybe that's life and I just have to accept it, but it's never really happened to me before. Compared to other people, I think things have been rather easy for me in the past, and I have been really lucky for that... this just comes as a shock to my system that I don't really understand. In the past half of year, things were changing in my life that I guess I never realized until this summer... either I didn't really pay attention at all, or maybe I was just really naive.

There may be someone that reads this that knows what I am talking about, but most will not, and it will have to stay that way for now. I am sure people will find out what I am talking about in the future, but right now, I need to keep some things to myself. My problems aren't half of that as other people's, and I don't want to make it seem I am complaining about my life, because I am not. I know I am the one that has to improve my life and solve my own problems... nobody else, although some things are really out of one's control. This is just an area that I can use to rant about things, and in this case, it's just something that drives me insane and puts me in a bad mood. I like to think that it is usually pretty hard to actually make me angry, although sometimes I will act it as a joke. Lately I have been a lot more angry than usual, and it just sucks.

Well anyway, that's enough for this entry... I kind of wanted to write this to tell people that if I seemed to be in a crappier mood this summer than I have been in the past... there is a reason, and it's not you. Thanks for reading.